Six Weeks Off the Bike and Trusting the Process

Trust the process, I reminded myself as I labored up the climb, miles behind Macky and our new friend Gus. Trust that this will all come back. Trust that this is temporary. Trust the process. Trust trust trust.

But my ass hurt. Do you know how long it’s been since my ass hurt from riding a bicycle? Years. It’s been YEARS. Because when you ride a bike all the time, your ass doesn’t hurt. You get ass callouses or something, and now, for probably the first time in six years, my ass callouses were gone and it hurt. This shouldn’t be happening, my brain raged, f*ck the process and all that mumbo jumbo, you are just really out of shape and you need to do something about it STAT.

Here’s the thing — it’s much easier to trust the process when you’re working hard every day, when you’re picking up heavy things in the gym, going for five hour rides, or doing intervals on the road. It’s a lot harder to trust the process when you aren’t training at all. It’s a lot harder to trust the process when the process says REST. When the entire process screams “take a freaking break and decide if you even want to do this anymore” it doesn’t feel like a process. It feels like a reckoning. It feels like giving up.

But, it’s not. Or so I’ve been telling myself.

I have only ridden my bike three times in the past two months. One of those times was an hour long spin on a flat bike path. The other two times were this past week in Pisgah. Nothing like straight off the couch to riding with a bunch of pro and former pro dudes to make you question your training strategy.

Here is a photo of some cool ice crystals from one of my two real rides.

It was easy to say I needed time off in October. Here’s a blog post I wrote about taking a month off the bike. I knew I needed that time, and the rewards were quickly evident. I felt re-energized and ready to tackle the off-season and train like I had never trained before. But I was wrong. I wasn’t ready. By late November I already felt stale and I was having knee issues again. I blamed the staleness on the weather and the knee issues on a new pair of shoes, but it was more than that. My plans for the coming year weren’t exciting me. The idea of racing — or training to race — was giving me a feeling in the pit of my stomach akin to trying to digest a soccer ball. While I had some great rides, I was having a hard time motivating myself to get out the door. I just wasn’t really having fun.

To be honest, I had a slump like this last year in December, but I pushed through it. This year I didn’t. I just stopped riding. And then I went to Thailand for three weeks. When I came back it was -5 degrees in Ohio so I didn’t start riding then either. So, now it’s the end of January, and I still haven’t started riding, except those two rides in Pisgah (we are now in Boulder, where it’s still snowy and cold).

It’s harder to justify needing time off in January. This has been prime training season for me in the past, although admittedly that hasn’t worked out too well. But being unfit and feeling sketchy on the bike in January is stressful. What if it doesn’t come back? What if I screwed up and took TOO MUCH time off? What if this wasn’t part of the process at all, but just me being lazy?

But, to be honest, I know that’s not the case. I know can trust this process.

Over the past few weeks, I’ve taken some steps to get myself headed in the right direction. I took a long hard look at my goals and realized that my racing goals weren’t really squared with my priorities — they just didn’t feel authentic and they didn’t excite me. I realized that even if I were able to win such and such race, it wouldn’t be that satisfying if I was still limping around dealing with knee issues and not able to run, or even walk, around the block. The truth is that my motivation for riding and racing has always been more intrinsic than I’ve been willing to admit. While it would be nice to get better results than I have, winning has never been my primary motivation (obviously or I probably wouldn’t have made it this far). I think for some people the idea of winning a race is motivation enough to train through the winter — it’s what gets them out of bed in the morning and out on the bike when it’s -5. But, honestly, I don’t care nearly enough about winning a bike race in a discipline that 99% of the world doesn’t even know about it. I just don’t.

Trying to be better — working on ankle and toe mobility with Dane at Revo PT

The good news is that I care enough about being better that I don’t need winning as a motivation — in fact, if anything, it just stresses me out and makes me feel stagnated and confused. But I care enough about improving and being a better athlete to do just about anything. Even not ride my bike for two months.

This is why I’ve set some goals outside of riding bikes – like this one that challenges and scares me more than any race related goal I’ve ever committed to — and changed up my schedule to focus on races that will be challenging or fun (or both).

And when the time is right, I will start training seriously again. Until then, even though my ass is sore, I’m trusting the process.

Stop Pushing Boulders, Start Moving Mountains

Photo: Noah Wetzel

You know when you read something and you’re like, “oh shit, that’s totally me”? Well, that was my reaction to this passage when I stumbled up on it during my morning reading. Immediate recognition. Yup, I’m the kid with the square pegs and the round holes. I’m the one pushing boulders up a hill. I have always struggled, especially with my athletic career, but really in general, with the fact that more effort does not always equal better outcomes. I want to be faster so I work harder, train more, log more hours on the bike. I want to be better at racing, so I do more races, because surely the problem is just lack of experience and the more the better?

And over the past few months, this habit of “more more more” has actually gotten worse (despite the fact that I’ve recognized it….). When I was forced off the bike in February due to some knee issues, I lost some really crucial training time. Instead of gradually working back into it, as soon as my knee was better I jumped right back into five hour rides prepping for the first two EWS races in New Zealand. My coach scheduled in a two hour ride — I rode for seven. When will I ever learn?

When we returned to the US, there was a massive snafu with our van being towed right before Sea Otter (you can watch our vlog about it here), all of which lost me some more valuable training time, which left me, guess what, frantically trying to make up for that by scheduling in extra workouts and “training through” the first Enduro Cup in Moab — training through being code for knowingly sabotaging my race by doing intervals two days before. Which might have been okay under other circumstances, that race not being a focus for me, but unfortunately I was already on a collision course for exhaustion. Fast forward three weeks, and I contracted a mystery virus that plagued me for two weeks and set off a bunch of mystery allergies that I’m still dealing with now.

I was pushing boulders. Pushing boulders is the opposite of “going with the flow.” Pushing boulders is all force and no right effort. Pushing boulders is exhausting and frustrating and ineffective, because you feel like you’re doing everything and yet, those damn mountains refuse to budge. I have been pushing boulders for a long time now.

It’s an interesting aspect of the human psyche — the fact that we seem to be hardwired to keep doing the same things, even when they don’t work. I see this all the time in others, although I’m usually the last to see it in myself. Change is difficult — especially real change. We’re quick to change the easy things. We try different workouts, different diets, different equipment, but when the problem is elsewhere — say, in our mindset or our lifestyle — we’re slow to address it. We simply swap one boulder for another, fill up the void with chatter and action, instead of, as Mumford suggests in the quote at the top of this page “getting silent.”

A lot of my issues over the past 18 months have stemmed from a total refusal to get silent. Overuse knee injuries, mental burnout, illness, crippling fears, incredibly stressful travel arrangements — all of these were avoidable to some extent or another, but truly fixing the situation would have meant sacrifices I didn’t want to make. Like less travel, less insane turnarounds, less expectations. These are not impossible sacrifices to make, although at certain points they certainly felt like it. As a good friend and fellow racer told me after last weekend’s race “maybe you just need to start saying no.”

It’s hard to say no to fun opportunities and races (hello, #firstworldproblems), but something I obviously need to get better about. This past week I made the decision to skip the third round of the National Enduro Series, as well as the opportunity to explore Montana and northern Idaho, two new places for me. This also meant sending Macky on a thirty hour driving mission by himself, which I still feel a little guilty about. But it was definitely some progress in the right direction.

Changing my mindset to be more in line with my goals will not be an overnight process, but I’m starting to recognize the incongruities and seeing where improvements could be made. And in the long run, I’m determined to stop pushing boulders so that one day, maybe, I can move mountains.

How Do You Train for Enduro?

Hi Syd,
Since you just wrapped up a series on skills practice, I would like to see a post about your overall training through the year. Like, what kind of fitness training (both on and/or off the bike) are you doing leading up to your season and what kind of training do you do in between races when you are in the heaviest part of season.
I always look forward to your new posts, and I find them much more interesting than the normal “this is what happened at my race” reports that many riders write.
Thanks,
Lindsay

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This question from Lindsay made me realize that I’ve pretty much neglected writing about my training on this blog. This isn’t because I don’t think training is important — obviously, it’s super important — but more because I don’t consider myself a training expert. I have a coach and a strength trainer/PT who write all of my workouts and basically save me from myself on a weekly basis. It’s really, really hard to train yourself, especially if you kinda know nothing about sports physiology. I tried to do it in 2014/15 and it was a total disaster that resulted in jacked up knees and me being sick like seven times in one year due to effectively riding myself into the ground.

I started working with Daniel Matheny (Matheny Endurance) last winter and I cannot express how great it is to have someone writing your training plan — having planned workouts eliminates all those nagging thoughts of “am I doing enough” and “is this even the kind of workout I should be doing” that plagued me before I started working with Daniel. Now, I just put my head down and do it, and it’s great. Also, Daniel’s really good about figuring out when I need more rest, just based on the power/HR numbers he’s seeing, so even if I’m lying and saying I’m fine, he tells me to rest more. While I had plenty of other mishaps this year, I managed to make it through the season without that miserable mid-August cold that caught me out the past few years. Recovery is key!!!

Since 2016 was (apparently) my year for dealing with shit I should have dealt with ages ago, I started working with Dane Delozier from Revo PT and Performance in May, trying to heal up my persistent knee tendinitis. Since then, I’ve been working with Dane to build strength generally and to keep improving my knees (and a few other grouchy body parts). Through this process I’ve discovered some serious areas of foundational weakness and bad movement and have been working to address them. (If you’re interested in how different movements affect mountain bikers, Dane writes a column for MTB Project and it’s worth checking out.)

Today's workout was rough. Nothing really went as planned, from mechanicals right off the bat, to the batteries on all my electronics dying from the cold. And also the fact that it was really freaking cold and I felt like my toes were going to fall off. There are so many athletes and fitness gurus on IG acting like every workout leaves you feeling amazing and full of endorphins and covered in just enough sweat for a sexy glisten but not so much that it's gross. But screw that. Training isn't supposed to be pretty or photogenic. It's supposed to be hard. It's supposed to make you tough. It's supposed to make you suffer. So bring it on. #trainingselfie #idoitforthegains #mtb #mtblife #nofilter #onthewords #thephotototallyhasafilter

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Training for enduro in the off-season is all about training your weaknesses. For me that means strength work and high power work. I’m naturally an endurance athlete, so I don’t worry about being out on the bike for seven or eight hours a day. While having some base is great, I can always pull a big day out of my ass if I have to. However, before I started training with Daniel, my peak power for anything from 10sec to 5min was pretty poor. I had also really never done any strength work at all before last fall, so while I was “fit,” I wasn’t very strong. And enduro is all about strong.

That said, if you’re interested in training for enduro, I really do recommend working with a coach to tease out your weaknesses — if you come from a power sports background (i.e. DH racing, DH skiing) you might need to work on your base more than I do. Even though enduro racers don’t actually race for seven hours, being out that long is no joke.

This winter, I’ve been spending a lot of time in the gym focusing on big-muscle movements, like squats, deadlifts, etc. and really dialing in my movement to make sure my knees are doing what they should be doing. On the bike, I’ve been doing a mix of short sprints (20 – 40 sec) and longer lactate threshold work to make sure I can punch it for an eight to 12 minute stage. Also, I’ve been riding fun trails, because fun is important too. As it gets closer to the start of the season, the intervals will probably get shorter, and once the season starts my strength work will probably dial down to more of a maintenance level to avoid too much fatigue going into races.

Training for enduro during the race season is tricky because between racing and pre-riding you sometimes end up with very, very high volume weekends. This makes it hard to fit in adequate recovery AND training between races. This is where having a coach is really key, as they are able to give you some perspective on when you should be training and when you should be resting and preparing for the next race. Left to my own devices, I tend to over do it.

Basically, training is all about balance, addressing your weaknesses and consistency. Sometimes you have to get out there and get it done when you don’t want to or the weather is nasty. That’s just life. Having a structured plan (and someone to keep you accountable) is a huge part of this.

Thanks for the question, Lindsay, hope this helps! :)

Is Will Power Really Your Friend?

The desire to have green boxes in Training Peaks is a powerful motivator.

The desire to have green boxes in Training Peaks is a powerful motivator.

When you tell people you’re a professional athlete, you often get responses like “wow, you must be disciplined,” or “I barely have the will power to make it to the gym once a week! How do you do it?” These kind of comments always make me a bit uncomfortable, because, um, me? Will power? Ha. Ha. Clearly you’ve never seen me eat chips and salsa.

Let me tell you a story. I used to be extraordinarily disciplined. As a high school athlete (and student), I was regimented, both in my thinking and my training. Things were very black and white and I was harsh on myself, my body and my seeming inability to achieve my (lofty and highly unrealistic) goals. I moved away from this thinking in college. And by “moved away” I mean, slingshotted to the opposite end of the spectrum. There was a long period of time where I couldn’t really be considered an athlete. In fact, being a serious athlete held for me a connotation of self-doubt and disappointment. I morphed into an extremely Type B person. Although I have changed a lot since college, I am still closer to that iteration of myself. Disciplined me was not a healthy or happy person, and even when I started moving towards racing enduro professionally, I knew I didn’t want to return to being that person.

Here’s what I’ve realized about will power — some athletes get where they are by pure force of will, determination and discipline. The rest of us have work-arounds. (And the former are not always the most funnest people ever to hang out with, but that’s just my opinion.)

Re-integrating serious training into my life over the course of the past two years has been a slow and deliberate process, in which I’ve tried to eliminate the role of “will power” wherever possible. Not because I can’t force myself to do something (goodness knows I can), but because I don’t believe battling my mind is the healthiest, smartest way to achieve my goals. I think there are other options, and if you’re like me and all that “ra-ra fitness just do it don’t be a pussy lift heavy shit” crap sets your teeth on edge, consider these bits of advice, instead.

Defer to the experts. (I.e. take it out of your hands).

I resisted serious interval training for the first two years of my professional career (pretty impressive run, eh?). Not because I didn’t want to do intervals, I actually kind of did, but because I was deathly afraid of over-training and/or working myself into a tizzy (a la my high school running career). Frankly, I didn’t know what to do. Starting last year, I started tossing around the idea of working with a coach. But oh dear, that would mean someone would be telling me what to do and part of the problem with being a very Type B person is that you prefer to decide your daily schedule you know, around 9am on the day in question.

In November of this past year, I finally pulled the trigger and starting working with Daniel Matheny of Matheny Endurance. Best decision ever. I quickly learned that the greatest thing about coaches is that they take the discipline out of your hands. If you know what you’re going to do ahead of time, it’s pretty easy to motivate yourself to do it. And if you’re feeling tired and sick and crappy, all you have to do is tell your coach that and they tell you NOT TO DO ALL THE THINGS. Whoa. Left to my own devices I gravitated between periods of being totally paralyzed by indecision and periods of “motivation” aka quasi psychotic training through injury and stomach flus and gail force winds. Working with Daniel has given me some much needed balance and peace of mind. And, actually, training is fun and feeling fit is awesome. (Go figure).

It's a lot easier to train in weather like this if you go out the door with a plan.

It’s a lot easier to train in weather like this if you go out the door with a plan.

Instead of forcing it, re-think it, and do it smarter.

I have a notebook where I record all my monthly goals and tasks. Since October I’ve been writing “do four parking lot skill sessions” and whaddayaknow I haven’t been doing it. I have plenty of excuses, mind, “it’s icy,” “it’s snowy,” “I don’t know where to find a parking lot” etc., but excuses shmooses, the point is, I wasn’t doing it. Previous me would probably have reacted to this with a slough of self-loathing, WHY CAN’T YOU MOTIVATE YOURSELF TO JUST DO IT WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU WHY DO YOU NEVER DO THE THINGS YOU SAY YOU’RE GOING TO blah blah blah. Current me is a little bit nicer to myself, so I’ve been trying to figure out why I’m not doing it, instead of just assuming I’m a failure.

When the opportunity came up to work remotely with Lee McCormack of Lee Likes Bikes on skills training, it was a bit of a light bulb moment. Ahhh, I haven’t been doing this because I have no idea what I’m doing, not because I lack the motivation. I want to do it, but I don’t have the direction I need, so it’s not satisfying and I don’t feel the payback, and there’s this constant self doubt of “am I even working on the right things.” In other words, basically the same reason I wasn’t doing intervals. With Lee’s program, I receive lessons that tell me what to do. After I complete the lessons, Lee takes a look at the video and gives me some personalized feedback. I’ve only just started, but I’ve already begun to think about skills work in a completely different way.

Use routines and incentives to your advantage.

You can’t always hire an expert to tell you what to do, of course. Sometimes you have to buck up and do it, whatever it happens to be. There are some ways to make this easier and most involve removing will power from the equation to some degree or another. (Hint: will power not your friend in this scenario.) The more you can make a task a given, an expectation, a routine — the more likely it is to happen. I’ve managed to do this with my morning “yoga.” By yoga I mean 2 -3 sun salutations. I’ve convinced myself to do this for the past four or five months by being very, very, very reasonable with my morning, un-caffeinated self. Which is to say, I only have to do my yoga until the coffee is done brewing. Yes, okay, it’s not a lot of yoga, but now it’s something that I’ve gotten so used to doing, I keep doing it without much whinging and it’s a great way to start the day. Routines like this take a bit of will power to set up, but then your brain accepts it as something that just happens. The key is to be realistic (don’t say you’re going to do an hour of yoga before you drink coffee looooool) and to convince your brain that it’s a routine and that there’s no decision making involved.

The other trick is to use incentives. I really only recommend doing this in extreme cases — the things you absolutely HAVE TO DO, that require significant time investment (i.e. are too difficult to fit into a routine) and that you can’t work around. Personally, I’m of the mind that if you really, really, really don’t want to do something, you should take a good, hard look at why you’re doing it and maybe, ya know, stop doing it. But there are some things that you have to do so that you can do the things you love — for me, these are my PT exercises for my knee. God, I have the hardest time making myself do them. I don’t know why. They aren’t exactly difficult. But they are kind of time consuming and I only really feel the need to do them when my knee is already hurting (in other words TOO FREAKING LATE). Luckily I’m sucker for gold star stickers, so for the month of December I gave myself a star in my goals notebook for every time I did the exercises. Terribly hokey, I know, but it worked, and my knee now feels 100% better.

I'm working on establishing a better stretching routine but it's a process.

I’m working on establishing a better stretching routine but it’s a process.

Realistically, of course, even with the stars, doing my PT exercises required will power. The good news is that because I had eliminated the need for will power in my other training, I had a lot to spare. Because that’s the thing about will power — it’s finite. It can work for you, if used sparingly, or you can drive yourself up the freaking wall trying to battle your mind over every little thing. My thoughts on will power, boiled down to the absolute basics, are these: eliminate the need for will power and discipline where you can, be realistic, have experts give you direction, and, if worse comes to absolute worse, play tricks on your brain.

I’d love to hear from your — how do you balance and conserve your use of will power? What’s your winter training motivation? Shoot me an email or comment below!

February 2015: It’s All About the Bike [Vlog]

I start every one of these update posts with something along the lines of “whoa is it already [insert month here]?!?!” I’m getting predictable enough that if this were someone else’s blog, I would probably make fun of them. So, I’m not going to say that this time, except, just kidding, I totally am, because WTF HOW IS IT MARCH WHAT IS HAPPENING. But forget March, we’re here to talk about February.

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Despite being only a confusing 28 days long, February was a big month. Lots of stuff happened. For starters, I changed the name of this blog to better reflect my focus on riding and racing bikes. I also starred (if you can call it that) in a little Valentine’s Day bike edit that Macky and Sean and I put together. It was featured on Pinkbike and got 38,000 views, plus 15,000 more on Vimeo/Youtube/FB. Yeeeeeek that is WAY more people than have ever wandered onto this website. Am I famous now??!?! I’m allowed to ponder this because no less than THREE (THREE!!!) strangers recognized me from the video. Whatttt.

Watch the video below:

February was also a big month for me because it was so singularly focused — life really was all about the bike. Contrast that to January, where we spent half the month traipsing around Southeast Asia, riding mopeds and eating Pad Thai. I’m not saying that our training was super structured (or structured at all, for that matter), just that we rode A LOT. 333.2 miles to be exact. And when we weren’t riding or eating, we were probably hanging out with bike people, talking about bikes or watching bike movies.

There was also a certain amount of silliness...

There was also a certain amount of silliness…

And I have to say, there is something really awesome about this kind of life (although it doesn’t always make for the most gripping blog posts). I am so grateful to have the time and the resources this year to actually dedicate most of my time to what I want to be doing. Last year at this time I was still trying to figure my shit out and agonizing over where I wanted to spend my energy — writing, riding bikes, trying to find a job? Now I’ve made up my mind and, as usual, I’m significantly happier having made that decision. I’m starting the year with 60 park laps, a lot of miles and a much stronger confidence in my ability to navigate a bicycle down a mountain. February was challenging, but ultimately rewarding, with lots of fun and ridiculousness tossed in there.

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And here’s our little VLOG from the month: